When I took Brinkley out for a walk just now, I met two indian boys (who came to say "hi" to Brinkley and I on Saturday when we went for our walk). They pointed to a man with a
cangkul on the opposite side of the road saying, "Just now a dog got knocked down. The uncle burying the dog."
Did the dog run out? Was the dog on a leash?That uncle was jogging with the dog. There was a chain on the dog only.I didn't react much to this but when I thought about "uncle" and "jogging", I remembered there was one evening while driving out of my house, I thought I saw an Indian man running - followed by a puppy (perhaps 3-4 months old) which looked like a Golden Retriever. If it was that same pup, goodness! Poor thing! Still, I was rather cold and just said, "Oh dear."
When dad came back from
makan with his friend, he bought me
thong sui. When I finished it, he told me...
"I knocked down a dog today when I came back."
*speechless*
*then speech came back* "It was you?!!"
"The dog ran out on the road, when I saw it, it was already too late!"
*shocked!*
"Did you stop the car?"
"What for? When I looked into the rear-view mirror, it was dead already. Stop for what?"
*horrified!*
"But wasn't the owner there?"
"I didn't see anyone lah."
*still horrified!*
"But..but...didn't you stop to apologize?"
"What for? Die already what. Stop for what some more. I don't care lah. They should've locked the dog up."
*even more horrified*
"You should've stop to say sorry since it was an accident!"
"No lah. The dog dashed out. When I saw it, it was too late already, I ran over it. Just continue only la."
*too horrified to continue watching TV with him*
I went to my room, rang Anson and said, "Guess what? The one who knocked down the dog was my dad." Then I started crying. How can he be so cold? So irresponsible? I know perhaps he couldn't do anything but the LEAST was an apology. You knocked down a dog, a living thing! How can you just "hit and run"?! What if some day Brinkley dashed out? (Pray not!!!) How would you feel?
THAT explains why the first thing Brinkley did when I led him out of the house was stop at the car's front tyre and sniffed real long. *sick*
Basically, he's not a dog lover. Animal lover, for that matter. I feel so ashamed yet sad for him. Anson was angry that he was so irresponsible, I was more upset. I feel like I'm responsible for my dad's doing. I have to go and apologize. It must be heart breaking. I don't know what to say. I have to find out who's the exact owner.
I cried not only for the pup but for my dad. I felt sad for him in a way that I couldn't really explain. I felt sad for him that he's going to end up lonely, judging by the way he handles people and things around him. He's so stubborn, he may end up with everyone else disliking him. That's when his only companion would be loneliness. I don't like having no one around (except "me"-time). How can you say you don't need anyone? We need people in different stages of our lives - maybe different people but still people all the same. The previous example of how irresponsible and stubborn-to-admit-he's-wrong is already enough to give you a glimpse of how much anyone would like him. I sometimes dislike my dad but yet I cried so much (eyes swollen and feels like as if I took those saliva-suction-thing from the dentist and sucked my eyes all dry!) just now because I feel sad for him - verging on pity, even. There's goes another person on the list of people who don't like him because he doesn't know what's the meaning of tact/skill in human relationship. *sigh* Anson thinks I'm mad to be crying because I'm sad on behalf of my dad but like I told him, he just woulnd't understand and I couldn't really explain it either.
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Rest in peace little buddy. *bawls*