Happy Merdeka!!!

It didn't feel very much special to me this year. Why ah?

I thank God for our peaceful country, a place to call home despite all circumstances and events....and the good food. *hehe*


Waiting for fireworks to start.


KL night view from the balcony of Paul&Hazel's place.

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Love is a choice. She knows you've already chosen not to love her anymore. The vibe is just so strong ever since May. You've alreayd chosen to not love...so what else can she do already? There's nothing she can do. Nothing she can change.
See? Because YOU changed. She's still the same. She's always here. She's always there for you. She's always here to support you.
Instead, you think her as being suffocating. You think her as being an irritant. You think her as being in the way of your things. You think her as being troublesome, a liability.
She never gave up on loving you. No matter what you did. Despite the fact she's better off without you. She doesn't deserve all this pain. All this hurt. All these tears.
You said you don't know but you actually do. You've already chosen to think that this other person is better than her. That this other person would be more perfect for you. That this other person is now the world to you. Don't you remember that's what you initially thought of her, too?
She knows everything but she keeps mum. As long as you don't say anything she continues telling herself everything is okay. The ironic part is that she knows it's NOT okay. Denial.

I love you. Please stop doing this to yourself. You don't deserve all this crap. Cry if you must. Mourn if you must...but promise me you'd pick yourself up again. I know it's been a long time. Yet the person you long for is so heartless towards you. Let go. Set yourself free from this misery.
Remember, I love you.

Merdeka's Eve

This made me cry. So poor thing. I left him all alone. *sob*

I think it's PMS. I took the picture because I thought it was funny/cute. When I was in the car showing it to Lav, I got all emotional and cried - because he just looked so sad.

*bawls*

What a time!

STUPID BLOGGER SWALLOWED UP MY POST!

Dah lah marah giler that I didn't have my phone at a time I needed it the most! Went to S2 mamak to meet friends but in the end came home to call them and say I'm not going out again. Pfft.

I was there for maybe 5 minutes? Walking around and even standing tercegat while looking around (not to mention having eyes on me, also...because I was standing there like I was lost!) Came back and called Anne to find out they were in the middle area?! How can that be? And the odd thing is that they didn't see me either! 3 pairs of eyes! Pfft.

I saw Cheng and thought of asking him to loan me his phone. I don't have Anne or Andrew's number. PFFFFT!

Last day

I didn't know this particular staff liked me THAT much to cry when I left work today. Weird isn't it? She even "kissed" me goodbye. You know the cheek-to-cheek kind that the Malays do? Never done it before with anyone here or anyone else other than the French friends of his when I was visiting in York.


The one on the right is our purchasing supervisor. I think she's also leaving soon to follow her hubby to Johor.

I was taking pictures with the staff there around the prescription counter. Pharmacist mah! That was where I usually had to sit anyway. Come to think of it, I miss being a community/retail pharmacist at this VERY point. Looking at that picture made me miss it. But trust me...when I'm behind that counter, I look forward to get away from it. So they say, the grass is always greener on the other side.

Hoey's Birthday

From Balinese food to pizza at PizzaHut in Pyramid. Sweet. *hehe*

Was tired anyway! And the jam...horrible combination of rain and jam. *sigh*

Not much photos...busy just chatting and listening to stories.
Six of us.
Sze-Mien, HuiPing, LiMay. Then on the other side, I was opposite Sze-Mien, Hoey opposite HuiPing and JoFo opposite LiMay.
Conversations were between Sze-Mien and LiMay (right in front of HuiPing's face), between Hoey and HuiPing. JoFo was eating, I was listening at the side. When I yelled at JoFo (yes, yelled. A few times) she didn't hear. Too engrossed in eating/looking at strangers who looked familiar to her. By the time I got her attention, everyone else stopped and looked at us. Pfft. I just wanted a teman to talk to while others had their conversations lah. *hehe*

The phrase that started from JoFo and spreaded to the rest of us, "I don't care!"







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When I picked SM up from work, I showed her the contents in my bag, "Look what I got?"

"B-i-a-t-ch!"

When I showed him the contents in my bag, "Look what my mom bought me?"

"What?"

That's the difference between a girl and a guy's reaction. *heh!*
He said he's never heard of that brand before. *shakes head*

Christmas came early!

It's August 24th and Christmas is here!

First, I went to Empress Hotel at Salak Tinggi because supposedly boss is treating us all a buffet lunch - because I'm leaving. All's well...then I was required to give a speech. Totally koyak because I'm bad at speeches in Malay. It was half BM and half English.
Then it was the staff's turn to give me a "personal message" each. When it was Diana and Sher's turn...they cried. Okay. Diana cried and Sher teared but both with thick voices. I didn't know I was like that much! *hehe*
They even presented me with a "bouquet" of FerreroRocher and a appreciation "plate"? What do you call them? When I saw the dark blue velvet box, I thought, "Wow! Necklace? For me?"

*heh!*

Food was so-so. Couldn't really relax and enjoy because we all had to think about going back to work!

I swapped work times with colleague because we were to go to Bagan Lalang for dinner - at 12.30am! This time it was from the tabung funds. Wanted all the staff to have dinner together and it's only possible if we have it AFTER the MTB staff finishes - which is at 12am. We (Yan, Dian, Ina, Aziz and I) only arrived at about 1am (and we were the latest! Grand entrance, konon!) This was because we had to wait for Aziz...he was on his scooter. Bah! Don't know what drama and sort that he ended up having to ride on his scooter to go to Bagan Lalang. Isn't exactly near either.

By the time I sent the girls back to their hostel, it was near 3am. I sped home to arrive about 3.20am! *hehe*

Two HUGE meals in a day, man!

That's not the end yet. When I came home, the goodies from mom arrived. Guess what?


I thought mom meant she found a wallet that was the same as the design that I wanted because she wrote that she bought a "coach" wallet. So I thought to myself, "Wah! US also got fan pan one ah?"


"Wah! This fan pan not bad huh, even has the monogram paper wrap?"


"Hey! Don't play play oh!"


*sweat* "Uhm...I don't think it's fan pan anymore..."


"Fan pan got labels one meh?" Also there was a price tag of USD198...

*jaw drop*

OH MY! It IS a Coach wallet. Then why did mom write "coach"? I thought...I thought...you know, if she wrote "coach" it meant "something like coach" lor!

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Beside the "bouquet" is from Diana, the one in blue from tabung, the one in yellow from Yan and the AfterEight choc is from Aqmar. So sau foon ying me! I never knew. *sniff*


So nice that I've yet to eat them!


The "plate" - what do you call this?

Happy Birthday Dad!

Cake that I like. Butter/butter sponge with butter cream. Nevermind fresh cream and all the "hi-fi" nonsense. I like this. *hint*

So uhm...I think dad likes this kind of cake, too! *haha* Because whenever I buy a butter cake back home, he'd be interested. Also during the previous year's company dinner, he bought the butter sponge cake from the same place.


See who is right in front of my room door sulking because I didn't give him a piece of cake?

How many times...

...does it take me to service my car? Or rather, how many time do I HAVE to drive all the way there and to return without getting it serviced. Yesterday was a public holiday for NegeriSembilan. Was so oblivious to all the signs - HSBC closed, Post Office closed, Perodua closed, TNB closed...was wondering WHY were they closed so early!
Today was because I went there at 4pm...there were only TWO mechanics and about 6 cars waiting. The lady told me, "Definitely your car would not be touched today. You have to come back tomorrow."
I'll try again tomorrow.

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I finally cleared my bed. Yes. Only the bed. Now it's like a day bed! Pillow-less because I brought all the pillows and the big monkey over to korkor's room.


Uhmm...this whole thing and two more loads of ironing waiting for me. HELP!!!

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I killed a spider today...IN my blouse. I don't know how it got there the first place. Seriously. I felt something at side of my body. I looked into blouse and saw nothing, so I ignored it. Then something on my arm! Instinctively I grabbed a small section and held it there. Ewwww! Spider! Squished...but nevertheless STILL a spider. How did it get there?!! Ham sup spider!

And people think I over-react when I tell them something got into my blouse/trousers.

Like the last time I literally STRIPPED in his kitchen! Because I was PRETTY SURE a lizard went up my jeans! I felt it, okay! I grabbed it when it was IN my jeans and it definitely felt (Cold! Icky! Rubbery!) like a lizard! I grabbed it to hold it there so it won't move anywhere else. In a split second when I let go to unzip my jeans, it went missing! I was jumping and jumping and yelling about like a mad woman. Thankfully his parents weren't in. And he was too engrossed with TV. Pfft.
EWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW!!!

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This is going to take so long to load because I'm a kucing kurap who don't have a photo editing programme in my computer - so I "resized" using HTML.


My muka cantik that the staff will remember since she took this picture with her phone.

At this very moment

HongHui is my BESTEST BEST BEST FRIEND!!!

*haha*

And oh...his parents rock!

End.

I should take probiotics

Tummy's been upset quite often these days. Why? I didn't even indulge in any hawker/road side food! I only took tea yesterday night. Bah! Didn't get to see the bunch at church before they left for camp today.

So now I've got a "weak" stomach. Pfft.

Bored.

*faints and die*

T-6 days

Next week would be my last week at work.

Nope. Am not resigning to be a tai tai to play mahjong all day and have tea with other tai tai's. Finally moving to KL to work. It's something I've said I wanted to do since...two years ago?

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I cried so much on Wednesday night. I got an email from mom giving her final say. Guess what? However "determined" I was with my decision, in the end I'm taking my own words back. I'm opting for "more work" and making more excuses to take this option. Bah! So much for "I must go on with my own life!"

Offer someone a fee to come look-see Brinkley on weekdays. Me come back somewhere mid-week to look-see and exchange car (not only to babysit the dog, but also the car!) because dad said someone needs to drive it! Then weekends come back for service and look-see dog. I need to do this for 4 months. Better be worth it, man!

I know it'll be worth it. After reading that email, I started crying and cried even harder when he was outside my door looking at me with that puzzled face. Continued crying when I hear him breathing heavily and snoring when he fell asleep. He's been with us perhaps half his life! He's getting old...takkan because of this 4 months we're giving him away. I don't want mom to blame me. I know she won't...but I just want to "play safe"

You know what? I basically need an excuse with a "strong" backing so that it'll keep me going. It's going to be tiring, it's going to cost a lot but I'm doing it for the one person that's important to me. Also, the one dog. *hehe*

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Small world! Just came back from mamak-ing with a friend I've not met since graduation (in 2003)!!! I was surprised to get her message saying she's in Seremban. I thought what brought her here. I found out that her boyfriend is from Seremban and he's my senior from high school! No wonder she's here! *hehe* Apparently I'm the first from Uni batch friends to know about her relationship...or was it to see her boyfriend? But I already know him. *hehe*

Sleep!
Some customers come into the pharmacy and ask me if there's any medication to take so that they will NOT sleep. I wish I had some of it. I love to sleep. I can sleep all day all night! Why some people can't sleep? Really don't know. I wish I can WANT less sleep. *heh!*

I repeat. I thought it's MONTHLY?

In one month, my "aunty" came to visit THREE TIMES! I think she misses me.

Pfft.

Lav asked if I'm stressed.

What do you think?

So sick

Not physically but emotionally.

I'm so sick of you putting me down. I'm so sick of you telling me what I should do. If only you knew the battle I've fought before coming to this decision. It's so easy for you! You just picked up and LEFT!

NOW you tell me I'm CRUEL? When I hinted/requested for help, you just ignored it and went straight to telling me off? You didn't even answer my question! Or was it done to avoid answering it, changing the subject, huh?

Don't give me crap about doing the right thing and being responsible. I'm so sick of you men. Both also give me crap. CRAPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPP!!! Now please don't judge/blame me when I don't trust men anymore. When I don't find it possible to depend on them anymore because I've got WONDERFUL examples here that makes me feel SO SECURED with men.

Now some wonder why am I obsessed with sealing every deal ON MY OWN.

PAH!!!

I've got feelings, too, okay. For those who know me, I'm very emotional and I'm sensitive towards how others feel. I often put myself in their shoes, think TOO MUCH for them and sometimes forget self (end up angry because I felt "cheated" but it's truly entirely my own fault)...yes. Even if the other party does not wear shoes! I KNOW how it feels. I love him to bits but I've GOT to move on. It took me SO LONG to decide. It pains me but FINALLY I've decided. I don't want to go thru the motion of thinking and FEELING and wondering, etc etc etc.

If you don't know what kinda person I am, don't even start telling me. If you know me personally, you'd know that it HURTS me and it took a LONG time coming to this decision. And it wasn't easy.

*breathes*

Birdie's missing!

Dad said cats were waiting beneath the tree right below the nest. He said the bird wasn't eating anything in the cage - so he put him back into its nest.

When I came back from church, it was gone! I hope the mommy found it and took it away.

Not that it became the cat's lunch.

*sigh*

Why put it back? And the nest is so shallow!

Cuckoo!

Came home...happy with my goodies!

Then dad said, "There's a bird in the kitchen. I think the other one's taken by the cat. Have to feed it."

I've actually got a bad memory/experience with birds. Well, when I was 5(?) in Muar...this little sparrow fell into mom's toilet bowl. As in her room's toilet bowl. We scooped it up and put it in an open top box. Encouraged it to eat and run/play. We thought it would have a chance to survive. It died soon after. No mommy to feed it properly. We didn't know what to do with it then. I'm not sure we know now...but dad seems to know. Hopefully he DOES!


Kinda grumpy looking.


Very sophisticated "cage" for the birdie.


This is the tree where the nest was.


The nest.


It's actually a very shallow nest. No wonder one of them fell off. Dad said he saw two eggs last time - how they've grown. But don't know where their mommy went. Dad says recently spotted a lot of cats lurking about our house. Maybe waiting for them to fall off the nest! Eeeee!


Dad actually went out to buy it a cage! That's a stick. Trying to make it eat. Softened bird feed.


Pink cage!


Grumpy looking, right?


The bird ain't the only grumpy one.


Brinkley was fed-up with me fussing over the bird. Well! He knows where to get his food from...the little fella don't know how to feed itself!

Bargain hunting!

Well, it IS our yearly MEGA sales right? Actually, I've never been affected by sales before. Not so much lah because I can never find the things that I like during sales. Even if I DO find anything I like, it'd be in the non-sale or new arrivals' section. Pfft.

This time. This time it's different.

I met up with LM, SM and Kenny yesterday. I told LM and SM of my budget to shop (for my new job! *hee hee*) - RM500.

I was asked what I want to get out of that RM500.

"Well, I'd like 10 tops, 5 bottoms, a pair of good shoes and throw in a few bras & undies."

I'm sure you'd know what kinda response I got. Being the cheapo me...okay, most-of-the-time-cheapo me.

So I set my expectations lower a bit.

"Okay lah. 5 tops (at least one for each working day), two bottoms, bras, undies and a pair of shoes."

You know what though? I'm near target okay. And I meant near my FIRST plan's target.

Currently I've got 7 new tops, 2 skirts and a pair of trousers, two bras and two undies. I forked out about RM420 for all of it and I'm left with RM80. So NOW for the bargain shoes. *hehe*

Although I was able to keep with clothing budget, I've unfortunately spent about RM600 (after discount!) on Biotherm products. Just because of me being kiasu. I'm leaving current job soon. Recently I've gam ching-ed with the Biotherm lady, so I get 20% off. I made use of it to "stock up" a bit. 6 items. *cries*

Think investment! Think investment! Pfftt!

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Finally got my goods today although I paid the lady on Thursday. Well, apparently staff is only entitled 10%. The extra 10% would have to be if she bought if for her personal use - so she had to find the "right time" to purchase those things for me.
The 6 big items are my purchase lor.
L-R : Cleanser, Moisturizer, Eye gel, Sunblock/Makeup Base, Scrub, Night cream (it's written "For 1st signs of aging"!!)
7 little weeny things and the bag are the free gift that comes with purchase above RM350. The other things? Bonus for me! *hehe*
Oh! Just realised one item missing from picture. Anyway! There were only 3 extra items - travel sized cleanser, mini perfume and this slimming cream! *hehe* For orange peel skin and contours. Ooooh! See...it doesn't take much to bowl me over. I need to go and korek for more mini/travel stuff from dear Miss Lai! *hehe*

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RM50 used to be a WHOLE LOT of money. Now it's...uhmm...it's nothing? You don't see our parents giving us RM50 to spend in one day at the mall when you were in primary school? Okay...my parents didn't. If I got RM10, I'd been super lucky.

See...when korkor came out to work last time, his pay was slightly lower than 2k? When I came out to work, I was paid an allowance of 1k a month. That is without paying rental and having any financial commitments. How to survive with that kind of money now? Seriously. No joke.

That's why I declined one of the jobs that was offered to me. RM1k a month...how to survive? More than half goes to my car instalment ady. I know it's a sales job, thus motivated by incentives, not basic salary...but tai lou! How to survive? In KL summore. Office is right smack in KL even! Unless if my parents were staying in KL and I need not pay for my transportation - then okay. Can lah. THEN you talk about working towards meeting targets to get incentives. When basic things also you can't pay for, what more? Rental, transportation...that would probably take up your whole pay. Even if you starve. *sigh*

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Anyway, it's late and I'm tired. I completely forgot about my PosLaju thing. Pfft. Went to collect dog food from Uncle J and stayed to chat with Aunty Jo made me forget. I only remembered when I was buying toilet rolls from Jusco at 9.20pm...

It's there.

No need to ask anymore, it's there. If you can't see it...nevermind. If you're in the pharmaceutical industry, you'd know where.



Went to sign it today. This is it.

Got pressure lah.

Position : Senior Product Specialist

I need to do homework. LOTS of it.

Did you send me something?

I wonder what is it? I received a PosLaju note today. It's with my Chinese name only. Weird. Who? What? When? Why?

Am lazy to go out to see what is it. I won't be able to do it tomorrow either because I'm heading to PJ after work. Friday?

Man! I should've gone out to see what is it!

Am tired, sleepy. Been dozing off in the car a few times - each about a split of second. It's dangerous, yes. Tiring week. *sigh*

Uhmm...hope it isn't any legal-serious documents. Hmmm...

Not so excited at that thought anymore! *aiks*

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At least it isn't legal-serious documents! *hehe*


It's the security device that I failed to collect in February!!! *hehe* Thank God! They can actually send it! Why didn't send earlier?! Now my account suspended. I've not seen/read any statements for almost 7 months! Pfft.
God's got perfect timing. When I do move to KL, I need to reactivate my account to ease my bill payments because my new pay day is a day JUST before due date of some of the bills I've got. Phew! Kiranya can still pay at 6pm or something and won't get any late charges, right?

And I don't know why the delivery person went thru the hassle of writing only my Chinese name. Wouldn't my first name do? Weird!

When you've got nothing to do

And your supplier gives you a cute sample.

(Unfortunately only ONE. Not enough to feed me alone!)


Milk carton. Sweet! Well suited name for the product. Who can forget?


A cow in the field on a sunny day...actually, a day with sunshine & drizzle. If not, where did the rainbow come from?


It's shaped like a cow! *moooooooooo*

I've got a week's break!

YAYYYYYYYYYYY!!!

It's a crazy decision, some may say. I think so, too. Asking for trouble. *tsk tsk*
Just because I'm jumping into a different field, I try to jump as far as I can. But hey! If you don't do crazy things when you're young...when are you going to do it?

So yea. I accepted the only job offer I've gotten so far. The company that I went for almost 4 consecutive weeks (every week different division interviewed me!) didn't give me anything. They didn't call. I had to call today (because I had to reply whether I wanted the job with the other company) to ask them, "So what's the deal?" to hear, "Oh, we'll inform you next time when there's an opening for the hospital team."

Cis!

Then again, I'm thankful for JoFo's persistence lah...but I guess there's a reason why I can't be her work colleague. *hehe* Too noisy if put together! Like during choir! *hehe*

So I start work on the 4th of September. Taking a very drastic turn in my career path. I'm excited and I pray that God intended to close the other doors to lead me into this!

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After AZ's interview, went to MidValley. Boulevard Hotel's Executive Lounge...punya toilet. Their toilets are nice everywhere lah. He was there to send the coffee machine. Like the one I sent to Bukit Jalil for him the other time with Aunt Lillian. So I knew how to operate it. *kembang*

The Queen

Happy Birthday Lav! No decent picture. Only one with you and your "aunty" hair. *hehe*

Naww...you're always our dear Lav-ly, yea!

I've just got an idea! I should get her socks. *haha!*

Party tonight!!!

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I wonder when would I actually have the time and money to sit down and compile my photos. From days in Glasgow till now! So many pictures undeveloped since I got my digicam. *sigh*

Mess mess mess mess mess mess mess mess!!! Everywhere! Don't care lah! Going out partyinggggggggggggg!!! Don't care!!!

I'm at home

I WISH it was because I only need to serve a 24hours' notice. *hehe*

No. I have to serve one month's notice. And I've to figure a way to replace today. I want to finish work as soon as I can, not drag it on till 31st of August!!!

The reason of it being almost 1pm and me home is that...Brinkley's sick. I woke up near 8am because dad was yelling for me.

"Geh gau ngau ah! Mm shu fuk hai mai. Oi tai hui thai yi sang ah. Lei thai! Li dou, goh dou. Ngau ah. Hai mai tau lah chah?"
(The dog vomited! He's unwell is it? Have to bring him to the vet. You see! Here, there. Vomit ah. Is it his bowl is dirty?)

"ZzzzZZzzz"

I dragged self out of bed to clean up the vomit. My dear Brinkley. Couldn't have been sick at a better time. *sigh* I was contemplating just giving him Maxolon *hehe* and still go to work...but he kept going "ugk..ugk" that I'm afraid by the time I come home, the whole house would be a total mess.

Look at this face...how can you be angry?


Poor mummy's boy is sick.

Counting down

I've officially resigned from current job.

I don't know if it's the season to change jobs or perhaps it's just me being extra sensitive because I'm part of the statistics...

*shrugs*

You could say it was sort of "forced" out of me to hand in my resignation. Boss wanted to confirm my employee status. *hehe* I've been job searching and going for several interviews, so basically I'm quite set on leaving - it's just a matter of when to tell. Since this is the case, I guess it's all good. Rather worried because I've not gotten any offers yet but God has been faithful! Three different companies interviewed me and another one just called me for an interview yesterday.

The worst that could happen? I'd be running back to retail line lor. If I don't get any job by September 1st.